Fighting PMS

Assalamualaikum and hi!

Monthly, I have this one problem about emotional things and angry when it comes to PMS - Premenstrual Syndrome. I dont know if any one of you have the same problem as me but I think I have the worst attitude during PMS. Even my bestfriends and family would get my tantrum effects IF they make wrong step to me. Well, let say that it was just a small talk where all I need to do is react or laugh at the talk. Instead, I got angry and "terasa hati" and things like those. I know it sounds ridiculous like heyyyy, you could be a better person by trying to control the feelings and your tantrum but I have tried. I tried all sorts of methods to get rid of this behaviour but I guess they can be called FAILED! 

The first method is I tried not to respond to any kind of things that can wake my negative emotions up. Just sitting quietly and just listen to them talking is just a ridiculous idea as my mouth would be itchy bitchy to just ramble and babble. I got so active to talk and respond to everything surrounds me when PMS. So, farewell method 1!

Second method is try to tweet every emotions  and feelings I felt in twitter! But I just knew it that it was the worst idea! I started to talk about people and get chattering about their faults and bads and I even curse on them! Well, that was the worst. Then, I would end up leaving bad thoughts on my followers and they started to think that I were always emotionally unstable -.-''  I hate to give people bad impressions on me! It is okay if you want to think of me that way but this is totally me who is calling for a big stone falling on me! "Sendiri cari pasal":( 

Then, now, in IPG, I started to not liking somebody when I PMS. Like, I hate to talk to them, I hate to even look at them, I hate to give my thoughts, hate to sit together even though we have shared everything together. Yes, my buddies. Two of them which I reallyyyyyyy allergic when I am in PMS. If I do any of the above, I started to get emotionally unstable and get angry uncontrollably. I DONT KNOW WHY BUT I JUST CANNOT! 

Macam orang mengandung pulak rasanya but it is true! This is what I hate about myself the most. I dont know how to lie to myself. I dont know how to hide the feelings. I dont know how to not being sensitive over the smallest matter. Then, pastu mulalah duduk menyendiri at the corner and start to have a bad thoughts and impressions on people! Hateeeeeeeeeeeeeee thoseeeee!!

Pernah sekali I even cried in my room over small things. I feel like ...

" Why did she/he tweet like that? "
" I must have abundance of faults and mistakes to God till He punishes me in this way"
" I have too much wrongdoings that God even hate me"


Even, I felt so left-behind when in whatsapp group or even when I see friends uploading pictures WITHOUT me in it, I would cry a basin! Seriously, this is the most childish thing i have done. I even blocked my own bestfriends when PMS. To avoid to be in arguments. Teruknyeeeeee :(

I guess they dont know this side of me. And I dont want them to know. Because, it could worsen the relationship if they make this side of me a joke. They play jokes a lot. Because they are all happy-go-lucky persons and they dont deserve to know  this. This is myself and my fault. So, if the relationship goes bad then the blame is on me. Kesian betul bakal laki aku bakal family aku nanti. Nak melayan perangai ni sebab aku sendiri pun penat dengan perangai sendiri.