still a kid (at least to mom)

Assalamualaikum and hi! 

Just had dinner ikan singgang (i dont know at your place but we call it liddat) and i was having a talk with mom. I asked her how to transfer the money in my account to the other account. Abruptly she said, no .... no ... dangerous! I was like, what the hell dangerous with that. Everyone out there has done that and got no problem with that. Or, it is that bloody dangerous or you still think that i should not play with that kind of thing? My head still have that kind of thought in mind that you always think i am still a kid and should be under your supervision every single minute.

I am not saying that i should get rid of you in my business ...

If i don't learn how things should be done and you don't let me go to explore by myself, then how should i grow? I hate to have that thing mingling in mind. Everything i do will be distracted and lastly, i am the one who got nothing but timid and narrow minded when i am within the society.

Just stay like that.

Sometimes, it is a bad thing to keep staying at home. That is why i hate to be at home. I don't get to go everywhere i want and do anything that is beyond my limit. As a normal human, i have that instinct to do something that everyone thinks that " it is impossible for you to do it".  Of course i can do a lot of hobbies at home such as reading and writing (blogging or diaries) but i believe in spatial skills. Human developed a lot through spatial skills. That skills need a lot of inner and outer courage. If the family doesn't encourage someone to excel, then you expect him / her to grow up? oh come on! Be sensitive. I want to have a free style living. Like, when i want to go somewhere, i will just pack the things up and be there by myself or maybe with someone i want. I wonder if i can do that if i am at home. 

An age like me, (i am 19 by the way) needs outdoor activities to be done. Exposing myself out of the home is not the only way. Keep telling them to be by themselves and trying everything by themselves. That would be a big help. They have a same-age society who will help them to develop well. By that way, the emotions and social skills should.

To the parents, stop telling the children that they are still kids and they must not separate from you. That is a very very very bad thing. They surely know, but just let them and eventually they will get back to you because to have the gain, you must feel the pain. Oh can I say, just accept the fact that you kids are all grown up!

I too, to the extent  so annoyed with my mother who thinks that I am still a kid. I should not do something that was be done as an adult. She's like not to believe in everything I do. Even in family gathering, when the others keep asking me about myself, my study and my activities, i was the one who eager to answer all the questions but it was always her who answer them for me. I do not expect it at all. How should I develop myself and my social surrounding if she keeps doing the same thing? I don't know. Maybe I should see what will happen in the next gathering.

Janganlah macam tu mak. I need to find my jodoh too. Asyik bawah ketiak je mana nak jumpa?