(Day 20) Single Woman 30-days Blogging Challenge

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Yabedabeduuuu! 20th post :P Finally who would think i made it to the 20th! 10 to go down and i am truly excited! Hahaha

20)   Describe your most difficult breakup and what you learned from it

I would not call this a breakup but it is slight a safe zone where I do not put my/his hope to each other anymore. There is one guy, we went to school together from form 1 until form 3. . I did not couple with him(X) but we were just a close friend, teman tapi mesra.

Form 1

He was in my class. The first time I see him is the first day of our school. In fact I do not even see his face, ,just the back of his face which literally his hair and songkok and shirt collar. I was talking to my heart,

“ Wow, this guy looks cool. I think I fall in love!”

Just like that? Yes, in a split second. I do not know why. So, he is my first real crush after Sheikh Muszaphar, I mean after Sheikh married to Dr Halina. Hahaha

Form 2

He knows! He acknowledged it that I had a crush on him and he tryied to befriend with me. Then, we started to text each other(only when we got back home as we stay at hostel, cannot bring the phone to school).So, he is the only guy who close to me.

Form 3.

After PMR, he moved to another school in Selangor or KL I am not so sure(?). But, we are getting closer. I was quite sad because I felt like he is so far from me. Childish.

Form 4

We rarely text each other because I was soooooo busy at school and with those homeworks. I was not thinking about him often, but sometimes he texted me and asked about my progressions.  My birthday always fall on the school holidays(19 June if you wonder) so that is the time where I will go back home and celebrate with the family. When I was on my way to hostel for a new school session, I got a text from him saying

 “please have a look under your desk in the class”.

 I was like, 

“okay”

 Just okay because I already know what it is! Hahahah cheeky. Well, what do you expect? A present of course and I was right. It is the presents for my birthday.

Form 5

This year is my final year. For me and for him too. But my friends told me that he got some discipline problems there and not being himself there. I was thinking, it is because of me? Why he did not think about the future? Why he did not study hard and be the best? I was a study freak before! So, I love to see guys who study. I just love it. No reason J  

So, I thought maybe it was because of me, he was like that. I just hate it. So, I sent my last text to him.

“Forget me and focus in what you do. Until SPM is over. That should be nice. Let’s just not texting each other from now. I am sorry”

That is the gist of my words. Tak sebijik but iras-iras macam tulah. So, we do not text each other. For the first time of not texting him, it is difficult but later on, I  just feel okay about it. It is true that I said not texting each other until SPM is over but until now, I still do not text him. Let it just be like this.  I am happy as  I enrolled into higher institute, I know there are a few guy who are better than him.

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What I learnt from it?

1.    I know that ‘cinta monyet’ is not true sometimes. Just like my childhood playdoh

2.    As we enter higher education institute, I get to know more boys and their attitudes, habits and psychology. (by observing)

3.    I prefer older guy, not too old but few years older is just nice. Bukan tak suka sebaya, Cuma my mom and dad are sebaya enough for me to do something different. Gene is unnecessary to follow,right?

4.    How to reject and say ‘NO’ to people in a nice way. He even text me again last year and asking about something which I find, cheesy for my age ;P and try to object it in a nice way.

5.    Kalau dah jodoh tak ke mana.

So, that is my first breakup with my teman tapi mesra. Not that difficult but for my age(that time-16/17), it is considered difficult. Sekarang dah matang kan? So, let’s not think about jodoh. For the time being J